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my days are filled with silent tears
my nights are filled with nightmare fears
my life still seems to be in shambles
stepping out on faith seems like my biggest gamble

lost and running ....searching ...seeking
fighting the darkness has quickened my breathing
where is the light that shines
answers unfound and I'm running out of time

my nights are filled with silent tears
my nights are filled with nightmare fears
naked and exposed to the world
in my back lies my friends swords

lost and running.....searching....seeking
fighting the darkness has quickened my breathing
laying awake in the darkest hour
lifes burdens will haunt you, if you give them the power

my nights are filled with silent tears
my nights are filled with nightmare fears
lost and running....searching.....seeking
fighting the darkness has quickedend my breathing

Dream Chaser

What happens when we chase a dream forever? And Everyone time we reach to grasp its gone. What happens when are dream is around us. You walk pass it everyday. Laying your eyes upon the words .............. What happens when your friends are living your dream. They talk about it. They wear it. They hold memories both good and bad. What happens when your dream seems to fade like a lamp with a dying light bulb. Do you spend money for more bulbs. What happens when your dream turns into a living nightmare. But you feel like the hero and constantly think there is hope. What happens when your dream is trampled by selfish people who already achieved theirs. So many ask when you'll make dreams reality? But they don't face the struggle.

Dear Dream,

I'll be damned if I give up. Just understand it's not my turn yet. Please remind those who already caught you to stop being hurdles before my finish line.

Love,
The Chaser

Been a long time....Randomness

I have slipped on blogging sorry...recap of Fall 2010

1. When I started here at KState I never imagined that Fall 2010 would not be my final fall semester in undergrad. But I'm accepting it wide open arms and looking forward to Fall 2011. My final semester and the semester I will student teach. (God willing)
2. Fall 2010 brought two unexpected friendships. And I find it funny. These last two school years I have had friendships placed in my life where I feel overwhelmed calling the person friend. A close friendship for me is not someone who will slap you up the head and ask you what the fuck are you thinking. I had a double dosage of new close friendships this year. I am blessed to have formed this friendships though. I released a few burdens through conversation with these two people. So at the end of the day these two close friendships are worth it.
3. Cross Country......I'm slowly getting over Nov 5th day by day.
4. School.....aaaaaaahhhhh I busted my ass this semester. My gpa to me low key didn't show it. Over achiever? Yes! Is that a excuse and reason to except my gpa? Hell no! Understand semester of non stop study grind. Yep. M.I.A. again.
5. Family. Yikes! I could write a novel about those fools at this point. But I'll continue to stay prayerful. Love ya.
6. backs to the unexpected friendships. The subject is kind of touchy when I think about it. To sum it up in words I would say....yikes.....oh my gosh....and thanks God. Seriously.
7. Teammates....where would would I be without you? *Ja Rule voice* I grew up the little sister. I came into #TNF the little sister. And now I'm big sis....I don't want any of this to end.....

This was by far my most random blog....yikes...