There's Hope

Hebrews 11:1-3 "Now Faith is the Substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen. For by the elders obtained a good testimony. By faith we understand that the world were framed by the word of God, so that the things which are seen were not made of things which are visible."

"Hope" = Greek word, pistis, which means to have an expectancy in God

The way its looking so far a majority of my first couple blogs will deal with India Arie songs. Her songs just speak profound words that for some reason alway deal with my current situations. I chose "There's Hope" for todays blog for many different reasons. I have quite a few friends going through life struggles right now and in the midst of there trials I try to remind them that there's hope. I am no bible scholar...actually i'm far from it. But like certain songs scriptures stick out to me.

When I myseld think of "Hope" I think of my life struggle. Inside of me is a child still waiting to play with the neighborhood kids, but I have already been forced to grow up and see the world. My understanding of lifes trials seemed to come to early. I faced it all as a child and as much as my family tried to hide it...well I still understood. I think my biggest trial thus far is my mother. Few people know my mother has been on drugs pretty much all my life, and she has had a few mental problems. I have reached the point in my life where I don't want to really even communicate much with her as she continues to throw her life away. I find myself jealous of the drugs that my mother has used...for the simple reason that they have been in her life more then she's been in mine. As I think of my mother constantly everyday I have to remind myself of hope.

When I think of how I place hope into definition of my own I believe its understanding and faith. The problem is I have lost faith over the years in the woman who gave birth to me...and its something that may never be built back up. I know hope is building stronger inside of me.... but I think I rather give hope to people than use my own...i'm going to work on it!!

Well I have writers block! I will have to make a part II of this blog. I have so much more to say!