Random Thoughts from a Random Person...uhhh me!

So i did one blog about 20 minutes ago...but there's so much more stored inside of me...so

1. I'm fed up with the "thug mentality" on my campus? Sometimes it makes me feel like I picked the wrong University....but I know better than that! Oh how I love my K-State! I just wish more people would realize the opportunity they have and calm down. I heard in a sermon that the cemetery is the richest place on earth. And indeed it is! Just think about how many people died without releasing the song they had stored in their hearts. How many artists never drew the picture they always envisioned and how many scientists never revealed their discoveries. I look at the students who attend my University the same. So much knowledge walks around this campus. But the main concern doesn't seem to be around exposing it but instead about what city your from and who's screwing who. #EpicFail
2. Beauty- in my words a value that can not be found, what everyone possesses and the most misunderstood term in history. I wish more young ladies across this campus would relate. Instead beauty is what they wait for guys to tell them.
3. KSU- I realized how in love I am with this school yesterday. Yes it has many ups and downs...but I love this place! I wouldn't trade the experience for anything. The friends, the memories and the future! How I love my KState! I had a first hand experience a student disrespecting the University just yesterday! I realized that I am both nuts and in love with this place. Forget all you who hate it here and wish to transfer. Bye!
4. Lifes Journey=Weird I can't even describe what the heck is going on in my life right now. Random outbursts, extreme sarcasm, fear of failure, the pursuit of happiness and love. All of this going on at once is troublesome at times. I'm not sure how everything arrived at once but I guess I'm experiencing my almost 21 life crisis. Yep I said it. Almost 21 life crisis....praying that I make it to my birthday without an emotional breakdown.
5. Love - I guess I have to put this one in here. My current situation is awkward to say the least. I find myself in the situation of being emotionally attracted to two guys at once. I realize that battling an emotional love life is hazardous to my academics so I'm going back to step one. Hi, My name is Fatimah....Fatimah Shabazz.
6. Friendship- I don't know who is who anymore. There's some snakes in the grass though. Then there's those friends with burdens that I'm trying to help carry. Sometime I want to remind them that I'm not God, but then I realize may have placed me in their lives for guidance or at least to be there leader. We lack these type of people now days.
7. Pain- everyday is pain ...everyday is rain. Don't mean to sound so emotional....but my Sunshine's always consist of a cloud or two. It reminds me that this thing called life isn't meant to be perfect. But mostly we have to shed tears some time.
8. The Next Chapter- there's a part of my life that I wonder if it will ever exist. I want it so bad...but lately I seem like a human rope being tugged back and forth between decisions and understanding!