Random Shit

1. I'm nervous about next school year. I feel like either all my work will pay off....or ill fail miserably.
2. The fact that I have about 2wks left of my track career is eating me alive. I'm not ready for it to be over. I'm low key putting on a show like I am. But I'm not. I guess maybe I'm ready for this season to be done to focus on school. But being done forever. #YIKES
3. I haven't possessed true emotion in about 9 or 10 days. I may get a little sad at times. But as far as tears coming down my face. Not at all. I'm not sure why either. I low key haven't been happy. Just regular I guess...I did have a blast yesterday evening. But I wasn't exactly happy. Doesn't make sense to you...well it makes sense to me... *continues*
4. I'm worried about my fellow education majors. A lot of them want to give up because they haven't done so well so on the Praxis. Now thats one thing that has saddened me. But nope....still no tears. With them giving up and or weighing strong to the option of settling for a Liberal Studies degree is killing me. It Really feels like the walls are crumbling around me.
5. The "walls crumbling around me" has been a constant feeling for about 3 yrs now. I'm not really sure why when things go wrong I feel that way. But they feeling is always there. I guess my friends and family are an important part of my everyday. Part of the reason I keep pushing. And for a stituation like this to arise...it's killing me inside.
6. my friendships lately have been um....different. I have truly grown apart from people simply because of their maturity level. I low key can't deal with how some of my friends are acting. So in turn I've distanced myself from a lot of my friends.